Sunday, September 23, 2007

What's Next?

I really don't know and I really hate this. Part of me wants to dive into IVF in December, another part of me never wants to try it. I am scared to death it won't work and I am scared it will work and then something will go wrong.

The truth is, I am not sure that I will be able to blog about whatever we decide. I love to check in with you all but for some reason I am feeling blog shy...I don't know why, but it is a strange and overwhelming feeling.

I promise to let you know what we decide, and maybe my craziness will subside...but in the meantime, I wish you well and I will pray for positives.

I always loved the song I Believe in You by Don Williams...I never really listened to all of the lyrics until today and while a few of them are a bit strange, I will leave you with this for now...

"I believe in love, I believe in babies.... I believe in mom and dad and I believe in you!"

4 comments:

Mands said...

I thought IVF would be a lot worse... okay, I am still only on Lucrin, but I was terrified before I started. And I share all of your fears, but "those things" don't need IVF to happen. People who conceive normally also have things go wrong. Try not to let fear get the better of you. We will all be here to support you if you choose the IVF road. We are all in this scary situation together.

Dreamer4agift said...

It's okay to be blog shy. If you can't, or don't want to blog, that's okay. You still have all of our support and well wishes for positive things to come your way!

JJ said...

Dont worry at all about being blog shy--this is YOUR space, and however much or little you feel you can write, we will support you! Just know we are all here to offer any help you need.

chicklet said...

The IVF decision's a hard one. We just finally came to terms with it but it took us forever to accept that we'd really have to do it. Like you said, I'm so afraid it won't work:-(